I think I am suffering from severe early PPD. I don’t know what the symptoms are but I am suffering emotionally so much. I do not feel any connection or excitement towards my baby. I am not looking forward to any of this, I️ had a family member and Mom do my registry for my shower, I️ didn’t pick any of his things out. My shower is today and I️ am not ready, I️ didn’t even get an outfit or fix my nails for I️t. I️ look horrible and I️ just don’t want to go. His room is still full of storage for the house and none of I️t is cleared I haven’t been in that room in months. Someone gave me clothes for him and I haven’t looked through I️t or sorted it out. I just am so down and depressed I cry all the time Bcus I feel so guilty. I don’t take belly pictures at all, I don’t even take care of myself much anymore. I don’t know what to do with myself I’m due in a month and a half and I feel so lost. Is there a test for PPD or can you take anti depressants for this??? I really dontknow what to do every time i go to the doctor my mom is with me so I don’t want to talk about it there. What can I do? I want to feel connected to him and I just can’t