I don't feel like anyone really understands. my husband is currently in a mental health inpatient treatment after he tried to hang himself Wednesday morning. My family and very close friends know and are being as supportive of us as they can but every night I have to look at my kids as they ask "Where is Daddy?". and then I go to bed and cry because I miss him but then I think, if this is how I am not being able to visit him and see him how would I be if I didn't walk in on him and do everything I could to stop him. in the end it was my brother in law who got him off the ledge of our balcony. he ran to our home all the way from his work. I was terrified to rush to him alone because I thought he would go over the ledge if I did. in the end my brother in law inched while I stood under where husband was in hopes my standing there with a risk his foot would knock me down (I'm pregnant) would distract him.

I haven't heard from my husband in almost 24 hrs. I know they were transferring him to another facility that would allow me to visit but I don't even know if that transfer has happened yet. so I'm stressed worried about him and not knowing what's going on.

basically I just needed to vent that all out. even with the support of our family and friends I don't feel like I can actually say all of this to them.