Too Soon

I'm 19 and in my second year of college. I've always said I'd wait to have a baby until I was at least 28. Now I feel some serious baby fever. My boyfriend's sister in law just had a baby. Her daughter will grow up without anyone her age to play with. I feel bad and want a baby to balance things out. I grew up as the oldest of grandchildren with my sister being my only playmate four years later. I know financially we cannot support a child so I keep it in the back of my mind. Whenever I hear a woman is pregnant, I get a little jealous. I see other people who graduate from college with a child. I want that to be me. I just think it's still too soon. My mom does too as she's made sure I'm always on birth control. 😅 I guess I'll wait until it's my turn and I'm settled enough to welcome my own child into the world. 😁