okay this may be long or short or I dont know. I just need unbias and nonjudgmental points of view. So I'm currently 14w4d preg with my first baby. Daddy and I were together at the time of conceiving. I lived in Idaho and basically was homeless and carless. first let me tell you how I got pregnant because it was not planned. BD told me he was sterile. Well hes not I guess because he was the only guy I slept with for months. (we werent together long) So my mother lives all the way in Kentucky and is so excited to be a gma. anyway I moved here to KY so I wont be homeless and carless. I broke things off with BD and things got really bad. like he was verbally abusive and just really mean one minute then next explain how he's sorry and want to be in baby and mines life. it would just go back and forth and we both said some pretty awful things to each other. well I blocked and deleted him off of everything planning on giving him zero rights and never having contact with baby. Now I'm having second thoughts and thinking if the roles were reversed how I'd feel if I was forced ton never see my child. I'd be devasated. am I crazy or what should I do? what can I do? I'm so lost and confused and just need a new point of view. thanks for listening