I found out I was pregnant, yay! Not so much. My husband is up for deployment and we are just waiting for them to set the date for him to leave. Unfortunately, he's not my first baby's biological dad but the only dad she's ever know. He never got to experience that pregnancy or birth and now here we are again. I feel so bad because he wants to be here and I wish I was more excited but I'm not. We've been battling PCOS and I really lost hope when we miscarried twins in July at 12 weeks. I can tell he's disappointed he won't be here. My daughter turns 2 July 13th and I'm due July 11th. I took care of her on my own until we moved in together when we got married when she was 10 months old. I was looking forward to having my husband here and that's not going to happen. My best friend won't be there to hold my hand while we bring a piece of ourselves into the world and I'm heartbroken. I've been really hormonal lately and we've got some distance between us. Please tell me we will survive this or I will with a newborn and a 2 year old. I can't imagine if he never came home 🏡😔