Relationship

I just broke up with my partner, we had 3 years. It was a toxic relationship, very controlling and we always argued . He wouldn’t let go of my past and he would use emotionally draining words. Made me feel little compared to him. However , it’s only been a week and instead of feeling “free” I feel hurt, I miss him VERY much. He promised me he would change throughout those years, but I would always run to fix the situation . I would beg him to stay with him. Until I said no more.. he looks for me and promises to change. How can I move on. There’s much more but I don’t want to go back and be on the same cycle 😔😔