How do you deal with a baby/pregnancy you don’t want?

Je

I’m 27 weeks and I’m pregnant with a boy. I absolutely DO NOT want another boy. I don’t want this baby. I want a girl but I most certainly don’t want a boy. My fiancé doesn’t care about the gender as long as it’s healthy. Like he wanted a girl but he wants it either way. I don’t. I don’t want the baby. I don’t want anything to do with it. I don’t want to care for it. I don’t want it in my body. I just want it GONE.

Has anyone else felt this way or dealt with this?

All I just keep getting told is “you’ll love it once you hold it”. I don’t want to hold it. I don’t want to be anywhere near it. I DO NOT WANT IT. And it feels like no one gets it. Not my fiancé, nobody...