(Im not going to completley bother with spelling or errors in typing this. It's too much work.) Now. In general this year has been shit. But this just has to be the cherry on top. Background: Grandma died on new years. parents are fighting costantly. Step mom gets surgery and becomes a spoiled, rude, unappreciative, jerk. I switch to homeschool to get GED. Gets diagnosed with general anxiety disorder after many panic attacks every night usually before school. Can't really handle anything. Breaks up with GF. Gets orders to move across the country... (military family) ((There were so many issues with this that caused even more problems. hence rn. but too much too explain that.)) wisdom teeth grow in. Gets tmj and teeth removed. Im a minor and no license. near by community college denies military ID. Refused to let me test. Falls behind in GED testing. Has panic attack and jaw locks up. After many long loud phone calls to pearsonvue. College has to let me test. Im leaving in a week. Gets teeth removed. Next day takes test and failed by one point. Takes other in time and passes but this one test by one point. I have to leave. This was in May. We got our new house in september. I start studying. I need to pass. Jaw is getting worse. Now: Step mom gets another surgery. Parents still fighting. Super tight on money from move. I have to step up since step mom cant do anything. Finally gets approved to take ged in new state. Cat goes missing on friday. Its now been a week. Its below 30. super worried. super stressed. Has to take placement. cant take placement. Has to finish ges first. submit scores. before the 23rd. Its the 15th. Doesnt take ged test until the 20th. Has to leave cause of custody. Doesnt know wtf to do. Already starting college a semester later than have liked. anxiety getting worse. hasnt had therapy in 8 months. used to go weekly. everything had to be submitted by the 5th. but because I have to leave. not possible. im screwed. unless I can submit everything and take placement in 3 days. while taking care of mom and finding cat and doing other responsiblities and packing and not having metal breakdown. and hope there is scheduling open. and I pass the ged. and just so many things. I cant handle it. I wanted to get ahead. I had dreams. move made this all so much harder. I had it figured out. its been one thing after the other. shit on shit. im losing my mind. im 17. I lost my friends again. im lonely. no reason to get out of bed at a decent time. I wanted to go to school. Im delayed again. mostly I just cant handle everything mentally. idk how to. ig im not trying hard enough. but im so burntout. If I start another semester later I can get my license. I can get a part time job. I can get more ready for the semester. everything been so close together. I need to find my kitty. my baby. I need to find out how to take care of my step mom and everything she did. How to take care of myself. How to accept this. im too tired to fight this. Maybe make some friends. because I feel so alone. It just feels so wrong to give up. I cry everyday since my cat has gone missing. I cant breathe. did i not try enough? it was so hard. this move. having to travel all summer. going somewhere new for the millionth time. those dicks at the college who delayed me even more. and me. failing. by one point. one. fucking. point. and then the day before my flight. middle of test. system crashing. was my last chance. the weight of this all. is crushing me. and I had to write it somewhere. I had to put this all down. Im really bad at telling stories. this is so long. and its just a gist. am I wrong to give up on really trying for just 3 more days after my test?