I was raped last year and now still not over it I feel that Everytime I go out I have to dress this certain way I have to act a certain way if someone touches me I do nothing about it just laugh or I'll lie why I did what I did I'm getting married in February and the person I'm with isn't here right now so makes it harder I would never ever cheat but I act in different way at the end of night I'll cry my eyes out it's really hard right now cuz this happened by Christmas time and it's here again I just don't know what to do I start liking girls to but always been me I love my boyfriend so much I wanna fuck this before I ruin my life because I'm so scared and before he getting back help I don't wanna feel like this anymore I don't wanna be reminded to what happened to me ether and cuz it happen Ed in June as well I'm just so dicussed with myself I need help please any body