Hello everyone, Today I am 20 weeks with my rainbow baby. I lost my first one year ago in Dec. 2016 when I was 12 weeks along. I was just wondering, for those of you who suffered a loss and are now pregnant or who have delivered their rainbow baby, when did you stop holding your breath? I feel like I can't let my guard down and really enjoy this pregnancy because I am worried something terrible will happen again. Did you feel this way too? Will I ever relax and enjoy this pregnancy and bond with my baby?