I’m sorry for messing everything up. I’m sorry for getting jealous everyday. I’m sorry for watching you every second and not trusting you. I’m sorry that i always did something wrong but you did stuff wrong too. I wish that i could redo it but i can’t. I always thought that it was my fault for you getting mad at me and that i always did something wrong. You thought i always lied when i actually told you the truth when my mom abused me. And when my ex boyfriend raped me. I don’t get why i even stayed with you. You made me more depressed and cried every night and feel horrible. I didn’t even go too therapy and i wish i had. I feel like it would’ve ended differently then but it didn’t. I wish that i could redo my life because of all the bad stuff that has happened but hopefully next year will be better.