I'm getting pregnant one way or another!!

I've been wanting another baby for awhile now. About four months ago,it became the longing for another baby. It wasn't something I just wanted,it's something I need. Hubby and I had quite a few discussions about and about three months ago decided we wouldn't prevent it,but not necessarily try either. Well,a month later we decided to actively try. I started using the glow app and doing so much research about ovulation and best ways to increase chances of pregnancy, started checking CM and CP like clockwork. I knew my cycle and cervix better than the back of my hand. I became completely invested on my part for another baby. I know I haven't been trying that long,but having two other children that weren't planned,I didn't think it would take much for me to get pregnant again. A came this month right on schedule and I was completely crushed. I really thought this was my month. I felt it. I was so sure,I even knew how I was going to surprise hubby with the news. I was so heartbroken and I feel like my body failed me,tricked me. Well...Hubby decided it would be best to wait another year before trying. Even more heartbreak. Even more betrayal. We were so invested into having another baby,we have names picked out. When I bought the first pregnancy test,he was so excited and impatient and wanted me to take it right away. He shared my wanting and longing for a baby. And then he just changed his mind. He broke me,the first time ever hurting me. After talking,he said he's just scared and it's causing a lot of stress and disappointment for him. So...I've decided to take matters into my own hands. We use the pull out method. I figure if I time it right with ovulation days and best CM...his pull out method won't be effective long. I know it sounds crazy or like I'm tricking him,which I am. But I know that once he knows I'm pregnant and the stress was taken out of it,he'll be over the moon.