still dealing with trauma...about to be a mom

I don’t know how to explain this so bare with me. I have been seeing a lot of things lately that have been triggering me. I have never really been easily “triggered” before but the past few weeks it has just been happening everyday. It reminds me that i’m still dealing with my trauma and that I have not faced it head on yet. I have had counseling many times but I could never open up to any of them except one but as soon as she hit a sore spot I would just reset and repress it all over again. I am scared to face what happened to me head on because I still do not have all the pieces together. The last time one of the pieces came together it scared me so much I don’t want to believe it. Even thinking about it makes me angry and I tell myself my brain made it up. I feel like I have been easily triggered because the universe is showing me I still have pain I need to deal with in order to fully heal and become my true self but i’m worried because i’m about to be a mom in a few weeks. I don’t know if I could handle the stress of being a mom and facing my trauma at the same time. I have came along way and am mentally stable now but don’t want to derail. Sorry this is so long I just needed to get it out there. I just want someone to talk to about all this....