So stressed about anyone finding out

Stephine

I’m 28, have a good job, two daughters from my previous relationship in which ended up in divorce. My family was not supportive in my decision to get divorced 4 years ago cause my ex was a nice guy but I knew he wasn’t the guy for me. He had no goals or life motivation other than my future wants and dreams and it was just hard to be with someone like that and I realized I needed someone with motivation and wants in life. Anyways I have two kids, my younger sister has 3 and and my older brother has 3. So my parents have a total of 8 grandkids under the age of 7!! I know it’s a lot. So today is Xmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> and my mom made comments of oh I think this number of grandkids is perfect we do not need anymore. I haven’t told anyone that I’m pregnant with my boyfriend although we have only been together for 6 months. I feel like I need to validate myself. The kids father is involved but I still have my girls 7 days a week. I bought my own house almost a year ago and have been doing very well for myself and I know things moved fast with my current guy. But I feel and know he is the one. So today my mom and stepdad kept making comments about not adding anymore kids to the family and it makes me really nervous to reveal it to them 1. I have not been in the relationship that long 2. It’ll be my third child with a different guy (my first two have the same dad). I feel my family is really judgmental and I just want to enjoy my pregnancy and not worry what people will think. My stepdad comes from family that people are married and basically stay married, have successful professional jobs and do not have kids before marriage and at a young age. Its obvious how stressed i am. It really stresses me out cause I do not want to care what people think but I do. I just needed vent. I want to be happy and share the news but I can’t. My bf asked me when I planned on telling my family and I said I don’t plan on it and they’ll see when I start showing. I told him he could tell his family when we get through the first trimester. My family is so judgmental I was scared to tell them I wanted to stay home this year for Xmas day and not go to my stepdads parents house since I see my main family Xmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a>. I know my stepdad isn’t too happy cause he always says well it’s about being with family and it is but It’s also about being with my kids and bf and starting our traditions and memories. Sorry for the long post, just really stressed and anxious 😕