Although I love seeing my friends and family for the holidays I can't help but still scan the room for you mom. This was always your favorite holiday and i know how special it was to you. We tried making it just as special this year but of course it will never be as special as it was with you. The only thing I even want is just one more conversation or one more hug or kiss and that's the hardest part to get past is that it will never happen.. I remember last Christmas when you had the most presents out of everyone in the house bc we wanted you to feel so appreciated and i made you the picture collage of all our pictures throughout the year. You cried when you opened it. I'm so glad we made it as special as possible for you without knowing it would be out last Christmas. I know you wouldn't want us to be sad but that's very hard right now. I hope everything looks beautiful from heaven and you can see every ones Christmas lights all at once from up above. I love and miss you so much mama💕