christmas 😒

its christmas, obviously. i dont like christmas, its not my thing, i stopped caring about it since i was in grade school. ive been putting up with everyone elses interest in it since then, and im just tired of it. im sick of compromising. i dont want to visit people for the sake of christmas when i dont see them otherwise. i dont understand why im expected to put aside my preferences and nobody sees mine as relevant. holidays make me uncomfortable and im not into it. just let me be alone during it??? thats what i want, i dont get it.