This has been the best and worst year. I got married but we have had 3 losses wanting so bad to give my husband his first child. Being 42 and 44 age is going against us.. I just don't know how to feel. I really don't think God has brought us this far to not give us a baby... just got a call tonight. our cousin, got married a day before us is now pregnant ( and her tubes tied!). She is a little younger than me and her man is older than my Husband. I want to be happy for them but all I feel like doing is crying.. why did this happen to us and when is it our turn? Just so depressed.. Our last loss was in June and still TTC its so hard month after month with negative results...