anxiety from thoughts

So I can’t stop thinking about a job, It’s a job abroad I have been offered it’s not for another two months but have no idea what to do. Still unsure what I want I also have a boyfriend and I haven’t spoke to him about it yet because it will just cause issues. Me and him haven’t been very good lately until this last week with Xmas things have been great. I no a lot can happen in two months but my head is just a mess. Deep down I thought I wanted the job but the last two weeks I’m starting to think what do I want. I don’t want to leave him. But things are all over the place usually so maybe see how  the next few weeks go?