Traded slots for ebay

I had a gambling problem from 17-21. Id win a lot, probably more often than not. But everyone knows what goes up must inevitably come down. That being said, Ive lost a lot too. Mostly time, but also money. I wonder why i dont have cute clothes to wear like seemingly every other female on insta. Well it is because all the thousands ive lost at the casino could have bought me clothes, shoes, makeup, ect. But it is what it is. One night ( the first night I ever went to the casino ) i was playing a dice game called sicbo, i went in with 325$ turned it into 5500 in 3 hours, i started with 100$ bets 3 times. Won all three so i had 600$ took that 600 and betted it all over and over until i got 5500, ( winning each time) i decided to get off the table and go get my chips cashed in

Mind you i was only 17, not even old enough to be there. They were asking me all night for my diamond card to give me free hotel rooms and such i just keeped saying no thanks. ( would of loved it because it was early morning and a long drive home ) They dont ID for whatever reason at this casino.

That night after i collected my cash and went to leave i passed the table and saw that the max bet was 1000, i hadnt lost all night so i was like fuck it lets do it one more time max bet. Thats when i lost, and got so mad i bet 1000 again and again until i lost all my money and couldnt even find change to pay the tolls on the way home.

That was the worst of it, but ive lost so so so many many more times since then.

Recently i had my first child, and obviously with no time or money to go gambling.. i got on ebay.. now instead of gambling in casinos i gamble by bidding on things for my son. This way when i loose, i dont loose money, and when i win.. my son gets a new pair of shoes or something 😇 i feel like this is a much better option.