I don't know what to do, how to change my thought pattern, or whatever.. I've got so much anxiety and frustration it just makes me sad... :( I ain't gonna give a back story, but to let y'all know what I'm going through at this moment... my boyfriend (we are in a serious stable relationship) has had the same best friend for many years, and he used to be in love with the best friend's wife.. anyways, I can see the chemistry between the two of them, and she has just crossed a line multiple times so I confronted her about it, and she told me she understood how I felt weird, and that she would quit doing the things that she was doing..anyways, the first opportunity she gets she just totally disrespects me and stabs me in the back. after all that, I made it clear that I wanted no contact between her and my boyfriend, and it's actually been really good for a month or so...her mom recently passed away, and it has only brought them closer. 😤 I know that sounds like a selfish thing to say, and I am genuinely sorry for her loss... but my boyfriend is not her support system. he don't need to help pay for the funeral, or be her personal teddy bear. I tried to prepare myself after I head the news, because I knew he would be talking to her, and be there to pay respects...so I tried telling myself "he has known her for 10+ years, I can't get mad about this.." but then I hear him talking on the phone with her, and he is so sincere and comforting to her...something I have not seen in him for myself if that makes any sense. anyway, I just needed to vent... he has been at her house for the past 3 hours when he said he would only be there for 2, I made a huge awesome dinner for him because I was planning on him being home at a certain time, and then when he finally decided to come home... he just completely ignores me. like what the fuck? I also deal with anxiety and depression, so I feel is a bit different I guess.. but still I m just so damn hurt right now