So I tested monday and it was negative Im 41 and have 2 children

So I tested monday and it was negative Im 41 and have 2 children .Is has been rough my 12yr old son has autism and is been a hell of a ride .But today a day before new years I retested and Im again going to be a mom .Yes Im scared yes is gonna be rough and alot of people I know will look at me like im crazy but Im happy.And to all moms who have a child with special needs they are a blessing love them as I love my son and whatever god has send me now I love already.