I have wanted a child for so long it could make me cry just going into detail explaining my story so I'm not gonna. Anyways, I've been getting a lot of anxiety and freaking out about actually being pregnant lately. I'm so freaking scared of the pain. I know I sound like a pussy but I really am. I want my sweet child so bad but the thought of the puking, endless needles, pain, cramps, contractions, and birth?!? Oh my god how scared I am for birth really is the issue. I'm so scared I won't be able to do it and pass out. I physically shake and have panic attacks when I have nausea and am puking all day how can I handle pushing a freaking baby out of me? Why am I thinking this way all of a sudden? I just don't want this to affect my life because having a huge family or even just one little baby is my DREAM.