Found out best friends are pregnant...totally lost it

The past few days, I've been feeling good and optimistic for the first time in a long time. We have seven 5-day embryos frozen and awaiting chromosome testing and despite an unexpectedly high percentage of abnormal embryos last round, I've been feeling excited and hopeful.

Then I see on Facebook...two of our best friends are expecting. And I totally lose it. The family is still around from the holidays, so I had to excuse myself and go cry. It felt like a slap in the face out of nowhere. And I hate hate hate that this is my reaction to something so wonderful. I want to be happy for them and nothing else, but there it is. My breakdown.

I can't share this with others in my life, so I'm sharing this with you, my fellow warriors.

Here's to keeping the hope in 2018, no matter what.

Happy New Year to all and best wishes for a "positive" 2018.