Where do you start when it deals with this heart break......back in November hubby and I started IFV, everything was coming back normal and I was responding well to the medications, November 26th we had our egg retrieval they were able to take 26 eggs from me, that same day they were fertilized. We got a call the next day with results of how many survived..out of the 26, 16 of them were mature out of those 15 of them fertilized and out of the 15, 13 of them were normal. We were scheduled for our egg transfer on Dec 1st by then we found out that out of those 13, 6 of them had become blastocysts meaning they were good for implantation so we went in that day and had 2 transferred. We were so excited that our possibility of becoming parents was right around the corner. Dec 9th I went in for blood work to see if they had stuck and to our surprise we were told “you are pregnant”! Finally after 3+ years we were finally going to be parents. Went in again on Dec 11th to make sure hcg was doubling and it did, our Dr said next appt was Dec 26th and we would have an ultrasound then. Well Dec 26th came and we were so excited because we were going to find out if we were having twins, they did the ultrasound and she said she couldn’t find anything, no baby and no sac. Dr told us we should prepare for a miscarriage since my hcg was only at 392, we were so heart broken, I felt like a piece of me was ripped out. She said if no bleeding by Jan 2nd to come back in for another ultrasound and blood work. Well I went all week trying to hold on to hope since there was still no bleeding but last night I started spotting :( with cramps and now it’s bright red blood, no clots yet. My hubby says we still have 4 more in the freezer to use but I am so hurt, I really wanted this to be our time. And now I lay here in bed, crying and angry because just maybe we were finally going to have our baby. :(