I’ve finally had enough.

The man I have been with for 8 years and been married for 2.5 years , I’ve finally decided to work up the strength to leave. For the past 3 years or more he’s done nothing but cheat on me. 3 months into our marriage he went to work and never came home. Didn’t hear about him for about 3 weeks. I was so sick to my stomach and I thought something had happened to him. Nope! He met some girl and was shacking up with her and along with someone else. 2 Months went by and he lost his car and our apartment. He literally had nothing. And me being weak. I decided to forgive. And take him back. WHY bc I was worried about our marriage. I didn’t want us to get a divorce. Marriage means everything to me. And I tried and tried and tried. But back to the story. So we decided to move up north to Pennsylvania to start fresh and work on our marriage. Things were going so great. Or at least I thought they were. He was Skyping otter females. On dating websites. Hitting on girls at work. I told him I had finally had it and I was done. He said he was sorry and he’d never do it again. On Christmas Day he wrote me a long text saying how truly sorry he was for everything and that I was what wanted. This is what he wanted. Again I believed him. Fast forward to yesterday. After work I was super exhausted and I fell asleep. And when I woke up he was asleep and his phone was open. There it was the name Sarah. He was calling her beautiful and calling her babe and baby. Telling her he enjoyed smacking her ass and that they would have there breaks together in there car. He told her he cared for her. And that they were going to meet up today bc they both had the day off. My heart sank. I woke him out his sleep. And all he could tell me was that I was stupid. It was nothing going on between them. It was just the excitement he had talking to someone else. He said me and her are 2 different people. I asked him to please end it with her he refused to do so. I told him she must be worth losing your wife and everything we have built together. He shrug his shoulders.... I’m just so at a lost for words for 8 years this man was my life my everything. I gave him the best years of my life. I loved him like no other. And I had to find the courage to find the strength to move on and leave my marriage. I still love the shit out of him. But he doesn’t love me. And although I wanted this to work I have to love myself more.

If you’ve read this far. Thank you 😊