New year so everything should start fresh right? No not right I have found something I love to do and my parents might be taking it away from me. I feel so trapped, so alone. I need everything to go away, for I can’t take anymore. I’m so far done. My boyfriend doesn’t help. He says he understands then when I text and call saying I need him he doesn’t answer. Nor does he help. I feel like I can’t tell anyone else anything. I just want to be free of this. Everything is so heavy. My grandpa died a few months ago and I just need one of his hugs desperately. Everything’s falling apart. I have no clue what I did to deserve this. I just want to feel okay and loved. But that’s never going to happen.