just curious

hi ladies and possible gents. I am curious to see what you all think about my body. I have always suffered from body dismorphia and issues associated with poor self confidence. I am a few days away from leaving my SO and I would like to work on myself as well as my self esteem. I know there are some things I need to work on. I am currently 10 months pp and eat around 1200 calories a day if not less. occasionally I eat a little more (usually on my AF) but I drink tons of water current I don't exercise as I am trying to get my thoughts together about leaving and if you've seen my other posts it's not so easy since I cant let him find out. I before this last month I was working out maybe twice a week for about 30-1hr. anyways any advice and thoughts about my body are welcome. also I'm curious to see how much y'all think I weight. I'm sure you'll get close and I'll after I get a few comments anyways thank you!