Break up journal.

So when me and my boyfriend were together we wrote each other letters and we shared a journal where we could talk some things out if we felt we weren't able to say some things face to face. I know for me it's difficult if I can't write things down. I also am a song writer and I wrote quite a bit of love songs when we were together and heartbreak songs later.. so I decided to write everything that was him-related down. All the songs I wrote for him. And I thought I'd write every thought I've had down since we broke up in there Along with what I had before. Along with prayers I have for the future and prayers for me and prayers for him. Everything I have happening in my life now that he isn't with me in that way anymore.

And tell me if this is weird but we are trying to be friends again like before we were dating. So I figure we will continue our journal entries together. So I don't think most people would understand but I am going to give this journal to him once I write what I need to say. So yes i might be weird. But when I write, this is how people understand my feelings and what I'm trying to say. These are my letters to him. My songs to him. My prayers for him. And I might not even give it to him. But it gives me closure writing it all down together....

(Pictures to follow..)

Update:

Past 48 hours. Written 18 pages. Front AND back....

This is either keeping me sane or driving me insane. I don't know which at this point.