My boyfriend of almost 3 years broke up with me last night...

I don’t want to go into specifics, but it hurts so much. I’ve been crying ever since it happened..

He is the love of my life.. he didn’t have just a piece of my heart, he had it all. He is my best friend. My confidant. My other half.

I never thought this would happen. I saw a beautiful future with him. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this man. I want to start a family with him and grow old with him. I wanted to experience every high and every hard low with him and know we would make it out the other side.

Now that’s gone. It’s been ripped away and I feel so broken.

I gave him everything. He was my first love. My first time.. and I wanted so badly for him to be my last..

I messed up. I didn’t cheat or anything like that. I was always loyal to him. Forever faithful.

Just made one too many little errors and mistakes and he ran out of chances to give me.

He not a bad person at all. In fact, he’s such an amazing person. He’s so kind and forgiving. He’s patient and slow to anger. He has got the biggest heart and he does his best to be a Godly man and show love to everyone. The fact that he is insanely attractive was really just a bonus.

I took advantage of the chances he’s given me to the point where I just ran him empty.

There isn’t a thing I wouldn’t do to just take it all back and learn from my mistakes the first time. So I wouldn’t lose him..

It’s all my fault.

He gave me everything I could have ever wanted. He gave me a passionate love that consumed me. He gave me a best friend. He challenged me to be the best that I could be. He supported me and was always my number 1 fan. He would guide me and lead me with our relationship to each other and with God.

I messed up.. and I feel so heartbroken and so alone and so sad and yet so numb at the same time. I love him so much. So much it physically hurts.

I feel so alone and I have absolutely no one.. someone please help me.. I have no one to talk to. I have no one that will sit with me to let me cry. I have no one to just listen to me. Anyone I’ve tried to reach out to has just said that it’ll take time but I need to try and just get over it..

How do I just get over someone I spent 3 years of my life with... How is it just so easy for them to say that and completely disregard what I’m feeling...

Someone please..I need a friend. I feel so broken and I just need someone..