Conflicted on what to do

Mamie • Single mom x2

I’m extremely terrified. I had to have a csection with my daughter almost 4 years ago. Now that I’m pregnant with my second, I’m terrified to have another one especially since my husband is deployed and the baby will 3 months when he comes home. I really want to do a VBAC but I’m also scared to death by reading so much on it. I think the VBAC scared me more than the Csection. I’m trying to think of healing time because I’ll be 18 hours away from my family with a 4 year old and a new born. ALONE. 😭😭😭😭