I dont want to say that i used to have an eating disorder, because it was never diagnosed. However, ive always had issues with my body, i would skip meals and work out too much, crying all of the time because of how i looked. I got better for a while, i did my best to be healthy and work out a decent amount, to eat better meals throughout the day. I got better and then i got pregnant.

I was so happy i got pregnant, I still am. I love my daughter more than anything and shes still in my belly lol. But my body issues are coming back. And dont get me wrong, i knew i was gonna get big while pregnant obviously. But i did everything to avoid stretch marks, to avoid too much weight gain, to stop my boobs from getting saggy. But its all happening and i know its normal but i freak out all of the time because of it. I call my husband crying atleast three nights a week because my body isnt the same and never will be. Im gonna have dark marks and a big belly and saggy boobs and bags under my eyes from being an alone mom for the first couple of months.

Im not doing anything to hurt my baby, im still eating healthy and doing light exercises, I would never hurt myself if it had potential to hurt her. But i dont know how to deal with this anymore, i dont know what to do. I dont know if im posting this for advice or just to vent but maybe someone can tell me that they feel the same or something, i dont know.