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I thought id always be the girl.....UPDATE

Mal • Mon, Jan 08 • Mel

I thought I would always be the girl posting my faint lines month after month. Dealt with this for 5 years & when I did get a faint line id sneak to the bathroom multiple times a day & obsessively look over a line that was never there.

Whenever I got an evap I'd get excited even knowing that it was an evap because seeing a line there regardless of it being an evap always gives you a little hope & excitement right!?

It became very depressing. My doctors I could tell felt I was crazy but they arent in our boat and don't have to deal with what we deal with every single month.

My family always asking when we are going to add a little one in our life & us not having an answer...

Trying to conceive is NO joke. It brings a bunch of ups and downs. A ton of emotions weve never felt before.

I know all to well the feeling we get after seeing only one line show up.

Well I can finally say that I got my BFP a week ago. Ive been testing every day since & I can finally say that im going to be a mom. I am still in denial & it wont hit me until first ultrasound or even until I start to show IDK!?

I just want to tell you that I feel your pain. It has been 5 long years of ttc with so many Negatives, so many tears & fights with God.

I just wanted to give you girls who are still trying a little advice.. STRESS, STRESS IS YOUR WORST ENEMY. December was the month i gave up. The month i decided to leave it in God's hands and accept whether or not I ever have a child or not. I spent my tww being calm and relaxed. Not keeping track of how many dpo I was and i literally had not one symptom besides cramps around my period. I randomly decided to test with a first response totally knowing AF was on her way & i was out yet again and couldnt believe my eyes. It was a BIG FAT STRONG POSITIVE!!!➕ I obviously took like 10 more tests to be sure and they as well were all positives! My advice to you is to stop stressing around ovulation. Stop symptom spotting. Pray everyday. Just relax & enjoy life. It will happen when God thinks its right. I Pray for all of you lovely ladies & I hope you all get your positives sooner than later 🙏❤

UPDATE 1- My first prenatal appt is tomorrow 1/12 & they will be drawing blood to confirm. My lines are definitely as dark as they can be now so im hoping theres a very healthy bean brewing!:)