So basically I need to rant. I need to rant about this whole situation that’s been getting to me. And I’m going to be completely honest.

I’m a 16 year old Junior

-So it was November of 2016 it was this boy name Gian. Me and Gian didn’t really know each other like that but it wasn’t until we hung out with a couple of other friends that we got to know each other. At first I didn’t really like him but then I found out that he was a real sweetheart and he’s funny. Moving on he asked if I wanted to play a game. We started to conversate more and then we started texting more. Which lead me to send a picture of my boobs and he sent a couple things back. About two days later me and him went to the back of our high school in a secluded place, and me and him talked for a cool minute then we ended up making out

And I pulled out his penis, and I sucked it. Remind you that was my first time ever doing anything like that so I was shook

The following week, we did the same thing.

About a week or two later I found myself actually falling for him. Which was bad just because we had a friends with benefits type of relationship and he was kind of talking to someone else in like serious way.

Anyways he asked one day if I liked him and by that time I realized I liked him. So I said yes and he stopped talking to me a day before we got let out for break. Me and him did not talk for the break until the last day of the break and he asked me about my break and stuff like that.

-He slowly but surely stopped talking to me and me and him just always stared at each other. But by this time it’s January 2017 and I liked him extremely a lot on a scale from one to ten it was like an eight. So I started to send him pictures and videos of my body and it did work until I went overboard and he blocked me.

-This is the interesting part...... fast forwarding to February 2017 he’s bestfriend texted me and later on we exchanged nudes. Then he stopped texting me and I sent him a bunch of nudes and he blocked me afterwards. April 2017 he texted me again and asked if I can give him head. And I was hesitant but accepted the offer later on, the day we were suppose to do that he made up a lie and yeah he stopped talking to me. May 2017 he texted me again and we sent nudes i told him to let me give him head he called me a hoe and stopped talking to him. In June 2017 he texted me again trying to send nudes I did but then he told me to stop texting him.

Keep in mind that I still had a crush on Gian

Fast forwarding to August 2017 this other guy who Gian and Gian’s bestfriend (Christian) hung out with, Manny, took this class afterschool together. Me and him started to talk then later that talk turned into something sexual. I told him about Gian which he seemed to never have a clue about and afterwards we exchanged Snapchat later that night we also exchanged nudes. A couple days later me and him had sex. And the condom broke me and him had sex about 2 days after my period so yeah. Took the Plan B pills. But this other guy name Jevon from that group texted me and me and him also exchanged nudes about a week after me and Manny had sex. I knew I took the morning after pill but I got spotting and my boobs started to hurt so I got scared and took a pregnancy test and it said positive then negative so I texted him and told him he might be dad. He freaked out and told Gian and his group which consisted of Manny, Christian, Jevon, Eddie, and Nathaniel. Not only did he tell them but he told the basketball team and Jevon is also on the basketball team so yeah. I had no clue about that until me and Jevon were texting and he screenshot my nudes then denies it then later tells me that Manny told them about me pregnant.

I was so mad that I took the day off and I was later told that a group of guys were taking about me and calling me a sad ass hoe and all that disrespectful shit. Keep in mind I still like Gian. A couple of days later I got depressed and started to do drugs and stuff without anyone knowing until it was obvious that I was doing drugs and i needed to stop. I stopped but till this very day I’m still so disappointed in myself and my actions. Me and Gian always started at each other and we had talked a couple of times until he found out about me and Manny. Then he blocked me. His group always stares at me.

Then with the pregnant scare. I always wanted to have a baby. I still do I want to have a big family. When I was younger my periods were too irregular that I could not have child. I was told that about 2 years ago but now since that happened I’ve been having the biggest baby fever ever. The only real reason I thought I was pregnant was honestly because he cummed inside the condom that broke inside me, so yeah.

This all happened between October- December 2017.

Now this current day I feel like the school hoe. I’m so disappointed in myself I wish I could honestly redo my past but oh well.

I just need you guys help and comment about this situation.

Please and thank you