to talk

soo im 16 and yeah ik i don't even wanna hear the hell from this so if you wanna be negative then just scroll along on your way, i had sex. this wasn't the first time, im not a hoe or anything, but i wasn't "in love" and i know i shouldn't have had sex,cause its emotional and special and all that trash. we used protection and we were both clean so yaknow i was safe. i had a pregnancy scare. i know i have no business having a baby, i cant support it and neither can he. i cant even support myself. i took a text and it came back inconclusive i was so scared. i called him and told him and he was supportive even when i told him i wasnt sure about what we were gonna do. i was thinkin alot and still was really scared but when i took another test yeah i was happy when i came back negative but i was kinda sad and im really not sure why. im not saying i wanna go out and get pregnant by any means but before this happened i was really shut off to the whole "mom" deal but naw maybe years in the future with the right person it wouldnt be so bad maybe. sorry i know this is lame i just was tired of keepin it to myself.