Need to rewire my brain...

Long story short, I watched a lot of lesbian porn. Simply because they fucking know what they’re doing and it turned me on. However, I have no desire to be with a woman. I have a boyfriend and he gives me amazing sex. I strictly orgasm just with oral (unlucky one) but every time I do so, I’m just remembering porn. And it’s stupid because he does an amazing job. But since it takes me too long to finish, I just remember the porn so I can finish faster. I feel bad about him being down there more than 10 minutes.

This also happens every time I masturbate. I just want to orgasm only thinking of him. I don’t want to watch porn anymore.😖