Best Friend to Boyfriend

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So, me and my ex-husband were married for 2 years, and together a total of 7. We started dating when I was 16, and he was 18. I thought I’d found the love of my life, and he did too. We were madly and genuinely infatuated with one another, and it was pure magic the first 3 months of our relationship. And those 3 months were the only bliss we would know. We had our first argument around that time, and it was all downhill from there. Long story short, the next 6 years and 9 months were a combination of screaming matches, apologies, broken promises, and betrayal. Luckily though, roughly 4 years into our relationship, we met a guy at a friend’s house one night and we all clicked immediately. We began to hang out constantly, doing anything and everything together. I can’t lie and say I didn’t have a thing for him, but I pushed it deep down and ignored it, knowing I couldn’t act on it. For the next 3 years we hung out, but me and our best friend always clicked better. Really, he was MY best friend. It was easy to have fun with him and be myself in his presence. He and my ex-husband got along well for the most part. They drank and fished, talked and joked, but it just wasn’t always easy. My ex-husband was always loud and aggressive, taking up the room and making people feel slightly uncomfortable. It didn’t help that he was usually drunk. It was annoying and obnoxious to say the least.

Once I grew the balls to tell my husband I couldn’t take anymore of the screaming and the crying and the heartache, we agreed to get a divorce. I will be honest and say that even though it’s what I wanted, it was still the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. The death of a marriage. Having to gather his belongings and pack them, meeting him to sign papers and settle agreements, it was awful. We were civil, kind even. We cried together and talked about what could’ve been, but accepted that we were toxic for one another. Of course, through all this, my best friend was there. He never made a move on me or took advantage of my vulnerability. However, I met a guy I was interested in, and things quickly changed. Remember I said I pushed those feelings I had for my best friend way down? Well, I did! I’d accepted that he was my best friend and that’s all it was going to be, and that was the end of it for me, I never gave it a second thought. Once he realized I was getting into this other guy, he made his move. He told me he couldn’t let some other guy steal his chance, and that he’d had feelings for me since day 1. All those hidden feelings I had came rushing right back up, and now we’ve been dating for 2 months and I have never felt so happy in my entire life. Honestly guys, I’m gonna make this man my husband one day. 😉 I just know it.