I feel cheated

Does anyone else feel slightly cheated when you’re going through fertility treatments that you won’t get to surprise your husband/SO if you do end up pregnant? I feel so crappy about it. I had always imagined getting to surprise my husband with some super cute way, but doing all the fertility treatments and appointments takes the fun out of it all. I would never lie to him and say we aren’t pregnant, if we were- especially because this situation we’re in is just as hard on him as it is on me. If we end up pregnant, we would find out really early, like 2 weeks along. He’s already having a hard time with the fact that we would have to lie to family and friends about being pregnant because it’s so early that I don’t feel comfortable telling anyone that early when so many things can go wrong.

Just a rant/thought. I’m home sick with the flu and my mind is keeping me up, so I figured I would see if anyone else feels like same way.