Stressing and Freaking Out....

My husband and are TTC. We had been tracking ovulation and timing our BD. After AF came right before Christmas, I decided not to track anything but just BD as often as we wanted and whenever the mood struck. Four or five days ago, I got some intense nausea, cramping and loss of appetite. I just assumed AF was coming on. The days go by and I am watching all my discharge like a hawk. Usually it’s completely dry right before my period but this time I’m having a moderate amount of creamy white. AF never came. Every once in a while I’ll get light cramps and a twinge or two but otherwise nothing. Normally I have a 28 day cycle down to the day. I’m on CD31 now, but I’m stressing a little because I can’t make myself take a test. I’ve been taking care of myself even more now and I just want to be blissfully unaware for a while but part of me has been waiting on AF because it seems too good to be true. I know that stressing doesn’t help either but I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know why but it seems less painful to wait on AF than see another negative test.