As the 27th gets closer my anxiety worsen it will mark 3 years of not having you here , 3 years where my life changed and happiness never really came back , at only 23 all i have are what ifs and false hope , i feel lost and unsure or what or who i need to be. i have 2 sibilings one who is 10 and the other 21 who look at me for guidance and I'm bearly keeping it together , every night i sit and look at this box where your remains lay and wish and hope that you will come home , when will it stop when will things go back to normal , i just need you home.