Pregnancy Dreams while TTC 😑

My husband and I have been TTC since April 2017 ...... I came off the pill after 10 years, I NEVER paid attention to my cycles or anything before TTC..... I was never the girl to be like

“ omg I can’t wait to have kids “ I knew I wanted them someday & just assumed they’d be in the future so I never thought twice about it really...... we have been together for over 12 years, im 28 he is 31. Were both young & healthy. Absolutely no medical problems. But for some reason were not getting pregnant 😭. I keep having these pregnancy dreams & they are torture!!! Bc I wake up & am like FUCK! Why why whyyyyyy!!! & when AF comes every month , i cry and cuss her out too! 🖕🏼 it has become such a sensitive subject for me, I haven’t told alot of people even coming off the pill bc I didn’t want the hassle..... but I’m still getting it anyway .... granted these people don’t know whats up but still it hurts! I cry everytime I hear someone else gets pregnant, im happy for them , but when is it our turn!? ....... just being a sour susie right now ! I never expected it to be this hard. Best wishes to anyone who reads this on their TTC journey! 😘