i had a counselling session.

i did an over the phone session today. it was just the first getting the just of the story and deciding what to work on. but. i cried so hard dude. im still crying. just bringing up the first assault. ths assault i kept secret for over two and a half years. until recently when i told my s.o about it and he was the only one who knew. besides the point. my point is i feel emotionally wrecked. we just touched on it. not even actually descussing it. and im a mess. im trying to hold myself together until my daughter goes to bed. but like damn. these tears. i feel so low. and empty. i just want to cuddle my s.o and cry. but responsibilities. im off to make brownies put the kid to bed then mow the fuck down and snuggle. and cry. i hope i feel better tmrw...