So I live in a house with three of my friends. Two guys and a girl (other than me). This girl is 19 and I’m 21. We started it as fairly good friends but it’s gone down hill over time. Not too long ago she suggested we go meet some of her friends and hang out. Most of my friends hang out with good people but these two weren’t that great. One was a little older than me and the other was 40. It started out okay but then the whole situation got hairy. I didn’t know these guys and have been raped before so I get scared and go silent. My friend decided to drink which made me uncomfortable but she wouldn’t leave. I tried to make it seem like a good time to go but she was obsessed with the younger man. (Keep in mind she has a boyfriend and this wasn’t him) so the 40 year old guy starts messing with me and increasingly got more aggressive. Eventually he raped me in the same room (the garage) that my son-called-bff was in. I didn’t scream or do much of anything other than say: “no” and “I don’t want to” so when it was over he made me sit on his lap and in front of the other two would force me to kiss him and let him play with me. So I tried to reach out to my “friend” and she wouldn’t help me. She just took my phone from my hand and ignored me reaching for her. It took me over and hour to get out of there. Even though this is the 7th person who has ever raped me, I still feel broken. I could be pregnant and it’s all because the last time this happened I was so controlled I wasn’t allowed to go to anyone. I’m scared and feel alone. I’m not even sure what to do. I’ve debated telling my father but he’s fighting cancer and is beyond tender-hearted. If anyone can give me advice or something that’d be great. I just don’t know what to do... I’m trying not to go to that Dark place again and trying to reach out.