Today is the first full day since the day we met where my (now ex) boyfriend and I haven’t spoken.

We broke up on Sunday and today was extremely difficult not hearing from him at all. It’s new. It’s like the first official day of this new start and I don’t like it.

It’s a very long time to go talking to someone every day and enjoying their existence and knowing they’re yours, to just not hearing from them at all.

It’s taken every ounce of energy in me not to text him and ask him to speak to me. (Beg for him back really)

I miss him. I love him. I want him back. I don’t want to feel this pain anymore. I’m utterly broken.

I wish I could go back to the start.