Child birth

It’s like I’m so excited to meet my baby and hold him and love him but now I’m getting nervous about child birth even though this is my third kid and I’ve gotten induced with the first and had an epidural and had the second one naturally not by choice tho. All those memories and the pain is coming back to me and making me super nervous. I just want to be at the part where I’m holding my baby 😩 really not looking forward to the labor part or having to poop before I leave the hospital omg that hurt so bad 😩