Missed miscarriage

I had a missed miscarriage in Dec. My first. I went to my OB at 6 weeks 6 Days, she sent me to get an ultrasound the same day. The technician wouldn’t say anything to me, but called my doctor and they scheduled a follow-up the next week. I asked my doctor what was wrong, she told me the baby measurements weren’t matching my LMP. First pregnancy, so I didn’t know what that meant or how to ask.

I didn’t make it to that appointment. I started bleeding heavily 2 days before the appointment and went to the ER. No baby or sac. I was a wreck for a week and I cry some nights still. I finally had the courage to read the Ultrasound report this week. My baby was measured in at 6 weeks 4 days instead of 1 day shy of 7 weeks and didn’t have a heart beat. I was heartbroken all over again.

My boyfriend and I agreed to try again, but I’m terrified. I wanted this sooo bad and still do, but the not knowing is scary.