Just looking for a lil support that I'm not alone...a small back story of me. I have always has a messed up system, menstrual wise. Well I was 19 and had been in a horrible relationship and sex wasnt always my idea if you catch my drift. And I w asnt always the smartest when it came to sex( stupid me!) Well I landed my self in the hospital with a 24 week along baby ( due to my messed up system I did not know I was pregnant) well being only 24 weeks....she did not make it... :( and I was told I had i.c. and having children would be difficult and cause of that i have always been VERY conserative in the bedroom due the the hell i went thru with my daughter...fast forward to 26 years old now married to an amazing man! And we have always talked about kinda we've bought our own house and I never started a career cause I've always wanted to be a s.a.h.m. well we've bought a house made sure our relationship is strong and ready ( as it can be, I know) well we start ttc and finally got pregnant in june...but miscarried in July. Still kept the hope...started vitex and maca to help my cycle and I actually started to O on a normal basis and I felt great! And nothing.....so I lost hope my hubby changed jobs and we decided to take a break on ttc cause of the work and money change due to this 90 probation at work. Well I went off vitex and maca for 2 mnths and my natural system still was Oing I told my hubby and and he said 1 more shot....i had great amount of ewcm I had lost some weight and was getting STRONG opk. So we BD and am in my tww. Bout 8dpo i had light pink spotting but 2 spots really when wiped ( sorry tmi)I have had nausea, cramps, sore breast, and really lazy/tired. I am 3 days away from my af(11 dpo).....and bfn this morning it's been 1 yr of ttc, religiously let me tell ya!!!...i am SOOOO heartbroken. No one know we're ttc so I'm alone in this besides my husband....anyone have any helpful tips or encouraging stories or anything? My life dream was to be a mother....and I feel purposless and lost so any sucess story is GREATLY apperciated....sorry for the long story...but thanks for the read.