Why??

Ok so my friends and I are always talking about boys and we always talk about how we think they are weird but on the inside I kinda like them. I talk to them and we hang out and my friends think it’s weird so I always make up an excuse like “ he was hanging out with my brother” or “ it’s for a project”. And I don’t want to lie to my friends anymore but I also don’t want them to judge me. What do i do? Stop talking to the boy(s) or tell my friends the truth?