I'm so tired of TTC, I'm so emotionally and physically tired. I have wanted to start a family since before we got married. In 1 month we will have been trying for 3 years. I know some people try for much longer and they eventually get pregnant, but I just can't find the strength to keep trying. He tries to help me and support me but he doesn't know how and I hate to to put this on him because he feels useless. He gets frustrated because we know the reason for infertility starts with him, now im all messed up as well and I know its all the stress of TTC. I am going to go back on birth control until im mentally ready to start trying again. I know he will not understand, he thinks I'm stressing to much. He thinks I should just calm down.....really "calm down is going to help....He thinks there is no reason to get upset. It makes me resent him. I am scared that TTC is ruining my love for him. that's why I need to give myself a break. I don't know how to tell him that ive given up on my biggest wish.