Hi everyone. I am new to the app. I was using it to conceive in December which worked instantly. My husband and I were so excited. We hadn’t been trying very long and on January 14th I had 4 very strong positive tests in front of me. Naturally we told our family asap. Everyone was thrilled I had my first ultrasound booked on Feb 8th at what we estimated I would be 8 weeks on.Although we were TTC there was one habit I didn’t kick completely and that’s my addiction to smoking cigarettes. The day I found out I was pregnant I was frantic in trying to quit even though I knew I should have before. I went from near a pack a day to just one cigarette a day in a couple days. I went on for a little over a week just having one in the morning and had 100 percent full intentions to finally get rid of that one by this month. I blamed the stress at my job which also this month I was set to have my hours reduced to part time. I work in a day care which I was finding very hard already with the lifting and constant commotion 9 hours a day. On Thursday I had a miscarriage. All that is going through my mind is thats its my fault. The doctor had no explanation to me as it happened and told me not to blame myself for anything that I did. At this point all I feel is like a terrible selfish person and the one cigarette a day I was smoking for a few weeks definitely could have been the cause of this. The pain that I am in is overwhelming in too many ways. I feel horrible and like I don’t even deserve to have a baby anymore. This was my first pregnancy and I lost it at around 7 weeks.