I currently have a 23 month old son and am 28 weeks pregnant with baby boy #2. I am feeling all over the place. I’m exhausted, unmotivated, irritable, bouts of anger followed by sadness. I have 10-12 more weeks with my first born. Yet I am so unmotivated to be the rockstar mom I used to be. I don’t want to play, I don’t want to read, I don’t want to make 3 meals a day and 2 snacks. I don’t have patience for his tantrums, I don’t want to rock him for 30 mins while I wait for him to nap/sleep. After writing all those “DONTS” I am feeling extremely angry because I DO want to do all of those things. I want to enjoy my time with him. I want to comfort him, I don’t want to be irritable, I want to play, I WANT to be his rockstar mom. I can’t help but think/feel, if it’s so hard right now, how much harder it’s going to be with 2 kids, and I don’t think the kids themselves are HARD. It’s these emotions, the lack of drive, lack of motivation, and the inability to control my emotions as well as I should. I’m finding myself yelling instead of talking and then apologizing because no one did anything wrong. I need to know I’m not alone. I feel so alone, and I feel sooo sooo sad. 😣😢